i feel better when you’re here even though i know it’s gonna end miserably, you pathetically crying for my attention and all i can think is ‘give up you fool, you lost this battle from the right beginning’ and i think you knew it from the start as well as i did. although in all [...]

but why can’t we all just leave this dark place and do something ‘are you unhappy?’ maybe you absolutely hate questions like that ’cause you know that in fact your not, not at all. losing weight and dignity at the same speed, thinking we all used to be more but noones says it out loud [...]

and i suppose we all do strange things but dude you always did the strangest things you still do and its hard for the rest of us to cope we all know that you just want attention you useless attention seeker but whats so frustrating and confusing is that i dont find you useless although [...]

i feel dizzy my heart is beating so fast or maybe its beating very slow i actually dont know dont know anything about whats going on cause this is just too much to take in and i knew it was happening i knew it all the time but kept thinking maybe im wrong maybe maybe [...]